And now everytime I listen to it I can’t help but wonder if she was insulting me or?
The one and only Paige Marie:
Do you remember the first time you called me? You were bawling your eyes out over something that happened and you were freaking out. Well, you don’t know this but that night I planned to kill myself. I had already taken the pills and was ready to lie down and hopefully not wake up. Then I saw your name light up my phone and heard my obnoxious ringtone remind me to actually pick up. Knowing that I was first person you called, and the person you wanted to talk to saved my life. I knew I couldn’t leave you so I chugged a bottle of water and threw up thirteen times that night (the start of that being my lucky number). I forced myself to stay awake the entire night as I downed more water and stayed on the phone with you.
It’s funny to me that I’ll tell you that you saved my life and you’ll say, “yeah, I know” and I know you know in part-but you literally saved my life Paige. Seven years I’ve kept this from you, and it will be a few more weeks before you actually read this, but I want you know that I love you more than anything and I couldn’t be prouder of the amazing lady you’ve become.
I would just like to take this moment to say how excited I am to see Paige for the first time in six months tonight.
Sweet Jesabelle, this is a lofty request! But let’s start at the beginning:]
The first thing I noticed about Paige was her blonde hair and dark brown eyebrows. She had this playfully inquisitive glimmer in her eye and a giddy manner that I’ve yet to find in any other person. Her naughty half smirk and warm demeanor make for a thrilling combination of feelings. But in all seriousness this girl has saved my life and I would go to the ends of world for her. She is my best friend soulmate.
You are the reason I know how to drive stick, restring a guitar, and install surround sound. I know you probably regret the almost two years we were together, but I hope you can still remember some of the good times we had-because deep down we both know there are a lot of good memories there. Thank you for letting me grow up and move on, but my dreams were always bigger than we could ever be.
I don’t know what happened to us, but here we are barely talking and completely out of love. You are incredibly kind and sweet and one of the great loves of my life. And if anyone ever treats you poorly they’ll have me and your big brother to answer to.
I’m sorry for the way I treated you. I was in no place to have a relationship and I had no right to string you along.
Apparently we’re only friends because you thought I was cute and wanted to strike up a conversation, but I couldn’t be happier or more flattered that you did that. You’ve been there for some of my lowest moments and never batted an eyelash at my crazy. I love you more than all the stars in the sky and I truly do believe you are destined for greatness; just take me along for the ride, ya?
There are no words for you, and for the friendship we have. Just recently you told me that everything happens for a reason, and maybe meeting/dating Paul was just a way for me to get closer to you and Sara. You know me, and you know how positive I am, so despite me hating everything Paul put me through I couldn’t be happier since it led me to you. You’re more than people oft give you credit for and you’re certainly everything I’ve ever looked for in a friend. This may come as a shock to you (and anyone who’s ever seen me shed a tear over Dobby) but I’m not a huge crier, and I just want to thank you for dealing with my sobbing ass most of the time. In the short time we have become friends, you have become my rock and I love you more than I’ll ever let on.
Oh my stars, you are the sweetest person I’ve ever met. As I type this I’m staring at the myriad of wonderful messages you have left me over these past few months, and I couldn’t be more blessed to have a lovely lady like you in my life. You are sheer perfection, and nobody will ever change that or take away your youthful exuberance. I love you. Keep shining.
You are the most disgusting, despicable, horrendous, and detestable excuse for a man I have ever come across. I cannot believe any of the things you have done in the past week and I know karma has it out for you and your pusillanimous nature. I have never felt more hatred for another human being-not even my mum’s abusive ex husband. The fact you have the sheer audacity to hit on my best friends, yell at one for not sending you nudes, and brag about your fuck buddy/how many pussies you’ve seen/how many girls you’ve gotten to strip for you? I’m literally speechless. Fuck you and everything you ever told me.